Mail

I got three packages in the mail today.

Graduation Pictures
For once in my life I looked good in my graduation pictures. I was able to see the preview online and then buy the photos. The previews weren't touched up and I saw that WOW I still looked good. But then when I bought the pictures I decided to have a little touch up, y'know, making me look even better won't be so bad. I get the pictures today and guess what?

THEY GIVE ME A FUCKING TOOTHBRUSH STACHE.

My high school graduation pictures looked bad because they darkened my skin and widened my face. I would've looked so hot in my HS pictures since my hair was blonde and I had purple contacts... NO some biatch decided to make me look like a fat bitch with fried hair. And they darkened the contrast so much you couldn't even tell I had purple eyes.

These graduation pictures looked perfect since I've now matured and put away the bleach. My skin isn't the best but it isn't too bad.

I get a fucking mustache.

To make matters worse is that I was so proud of myself for graduating the money for my pictures came out of MY OWN pocket. And it wasn't cheap. I saw this package that looked like it would've been nice. It had two pictures of my choice that both had its own frame and I could have my name customized and the college I graduated at the bottom. The back of the pictures looked like it was velvet and it looked like all of this was behind one large frame. It was 69 bloody bucks after all it HAD to look good.

I receive it and find out that the picture thing is all just done in effing photoshop. Basically there is no individual frame for the pictures AND the back isn't velvet. No, its just one shitty image in photoshop. Basically a job that I could've done BEFORE I got my goddamn degree in digital design when I didn't even know how to use photoshop. God.

And then I ordered the third image of myself separately. I didn't get my skin touched up or anything and how did it come out? Gorgeous. This is why I should never be insecure about myself. Because someone will probably input a freakin' stache on me.

They said that I can return it if I contact customer service. You bet my ass I'm contacting them and returning this shit.

This fling needs to END
BENTO BOXES. OBSESSION. I need to stop. Anyway I got two of the three bento orders I've made...

Final Ichibankan Order

Oh yes another bento box. The top is like one of those bento boxes you see at restaurants. Its pretty cool. I remember when I went to high school in Japan I used to get bento lunches like that and ohhh they were so good. Then I got a bamboo placemat as well as more bento goods like egg molds and onigiri shapers. Below that I got some flower tray thing for my future dorm refrigerator. They're cute...I kind of want to buy more but I need to tell myself I don't need to. Next to that I bought like seven different types of food picks. I AM OBSESSED! :) Then there's a pink box that's a lot smaller than I thought it'd be... I thought I bought the large one but I guess it didn't. Then there's the lunch bag and the very last item is some heart thing I put on the frying pan to make sure whatever I'm cooking is in the shape of a heart.

I like my stuff cute.

Bentocrazy

Then I made my first order with bento crazy.

The top has a cute sticker that the package was sealed with. Below are the bento boxes I bought and the mini snack cases... they all came out much smaller than I thought they would. Still cute though. Then I bought more food picks, animal soy sauce bottles and cute animal heads that I put on top of fruit or vegetables...like a tomato or something. I bought matching chopsticks for one of the bento sets up there and a cute sandwhich cutter. The very last items are the freebies I got with my order. I love the pink star pick and the pink soy sauce bottle!

I'M OBSESSED! I need to be done with this obsession. I need to be done with this summer fling. I swear...

...I think I still want two more sakura bento boxes from sugarcharms though. :( THEN I'LL BE DONE. I SWEAR. Never mind that I saw a sauce bottle that reminds me of Prinny!

Eggs

I bought this microwave omelet maker from J-list. Finally used it today to see if it worked, and HOLY SHIT! IT DID!



I bought all this other egg shit even though I'm not really a fan of eggs just because they were cute. Man I realize how you can be completely experienced in one thing but completely unexperienced in something else. I think I've been doing the same thing too long that I just got bored of everything and I need to be outside of my comfort zone. Though my life will be changing drastically this year. A part of me wants to stay to what I'm used to but I know that I need to move on or else I'll never grow. I need to be a different person by the end of this year.

I'm feeling uninspired and listless...THOUGH I AM STILL FUCKING OBSESSED WITH BUYING BENTO GOODS. Damn damn damn...got three more packages coming in the mail. If anything it is motivating me to learn how to cook. Time to buy a Betty Crocker book or some shit. I find myself becoming like Akane Tendo. Some manly chick who really desperately wants to become a woman. Just hopefully I can actually cook unlike her. Here I once just wasted all my money on anime and video games but here I am wasting my time looking for cute pink silverware and pink cooking utensils. Then I'm looking for cooking mittens and cute freakin' aprons. Well at least I'll be more well rounded in the future. Right now I'm just a shy video game nerd/artist. In the future I'll be in the military and I JUST MIGHT learn how to cook!

Blank

Did round 2 yesterday and blacked out for the first time. And you know how much someone truly cares about you when they make you go to gamestop publicly intoxicated. THANKS! I sure embarrassed the shit out of myself. The worst part is here I am going there dressed all feminine but freakin intoxicated running around with a coach purse looking girly. So I don't even want to know what they thought of me. /fmylife. As far as alcohol goes I'd never become an alcoholic, COSTS TOO MUCH. But its nice every once in a while. I make friends with my split personality! Even I like myself better drunk! Haha. Normally I'm shy and awkward...wish I could be more open and outgoing. A little alchy helps with that.

Other than that I've been looking up shorter hair styles. Ideally I wouldn't want to cut my hair off. Its my security blanket, my pride, and aside from the only two haircuts I've had in my life I've always worn it long up to my waist. BUT its like what Gohan told Videl that her hair would get in the way while training. And surely I have no reason to look good during BMT and tech school, I'm going to be surrounded by kids that I look younger than. I haven't been to a salon since 2002. Freakin' Japanese. I wanted a hair perm but they said my hair was too damaged and cut my waist length hair up to my bust. I was so angry I cut it up to my chin. (Well not solely for that reason, had some cute little teenage unrequited romance heartache going on too)

I was going to go with Izam's old hair do (back then when he cross-dressed) but I decided I want to go with one of Yasu's old hair do's...back then when he looked like a girl. I know, odd - take all my fashion advice from cross-dressing men. Hey, they'll teach me more than the bullshit Marie Claire, Seventeen, or Cosmopolitan will ever teach me. Guys know what looks good and the main reason to look good is to attract guys. Women's fashion magazines normally have all this retarded crap in it, probably written by women to make sure that everyone looks like tards so they can get all the men. As for Yasu's hair do, I want the one he has in the following PV.



Yes I'm introducing you all to my most favorite band ever with one of the shittiest songs they ever made.

Speaking of that I was really into girly guys when I was a kid. All the girls were into N'Sync and here I am buying Shoxx and am into cross dressers. Some reason I'll never find the reason why I liked guys that looked like girls. I'd probably think that'd hint I'm possibly not into men but then again I grew up wanting Fist of the North Star types. And then here I am buying Dave Batista's book never watching any of his matches at all before. I bought it just because physically he'd be my ideal man. ...If only 15 years younger.

Guess I realized that the girly men weren't going to back me up in a fight.

Drunk Stupid

Blackout
Went to a bar for the first time in my life yesterday and got drunk stupid FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. I had good company so it was fun. One moment I'm laughing at these girls that can't dance on the floor then the next thing I know they grab us and I'm dancing like tards with them! After all that's going on in my life I needed a break and pretty much needed to let loose. Found I was the party girl kind of drunken and not Oscar drunken where she starts bar fights. It was fun but whoaoao not going to get a reputation with that, I am first and always will be a nerd. Though wow being drunk is something else. Its like a dream except the shit going on IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING IN REAL LIFE. I'm thinking about the events of yesterday and I'm like DID THAT REALLY HAPPEN. Well looking at my text messages, how I still had the stamp from the bar when I woke up on my wrist, and seeing the cuts I got when I fell down YES MIKA THAT DID HAPPEN.

O______O

GRRRL GAMERS
I've been a freakin nerd for as long as I can remember but in ways I'm glad that everything didn't work out in the end as far as me going to art college to make video games for a living. My life is kind of awesome the way it is. I don't deal with nerds and don't really have any nerdy friends. Its like some little hobby that I go home to and only I know about. I'd rather have it that way. Hahaha. Really by the time I was on my last quarter of college I already had enough dealing with the nerdy artsy types. FUCKING TIRED OF GRRRRLLL GAMERS. I couldn't imagine doing that for two more years. When the class started talking about all the schools they were going to transfer to I was like "Fuck I just enlisted in the military. That has absolutely NOTHING to do with my degree!"

And man, I've got to love GRRRLLLL gamers and how they always act like they're better and more cultured than me because they play video games. WTF. Realizing how much of my life I WASTED playing video games I wonder why there's so many groups out there trying to promote girls to play them. How the hell will playing video games better your life? Look at me dammit, spent my whole life playing video games that when I got my first job I didn't have any social skills and was pretty much a virgin to life in general because I never experienced anything. I did level up all my characters to 99 in SNES Chrono Trigger, but I can't put that down on a resume.

CUTE
Anyway the rest of my order from J-list came. My camera died out while I was taking pictures all I could take was a picture of this awesome Hello Kitty cup I bought.






It was a lot like those older cups made out of clay or something. I'm leaving that in its box until I get stationed to my first base. Haha I bought so much for my future dorm, I'm putting myself in a position where I can't set myself up for failure.

GRRRL GAMERS PART 2
Something I've realized is that I've always told myself I can't do things. I guess I learned all along I could run a mile without stopping. ...Now I got to make myself believe I can run a mile and a half and even further so I won't be the fatty in BMT. And I don't know about all those girls that brag that they play video games, but believe me - I've been playing video games since I was a child and video games was pretty much my parent and babysitter as a kid. I grew up knowing NOTHING about life. Putting down that fucking controller is the BEST THING I've done in my life. Hell I used to be a fat bitch that always complained but never took the effort to make any changes. Had I not got thrown to work at a gym for two years i would've never grown like I have now without all the social interaction. I would've never gotten the strength to enlist in the military. So for one thing, I'm glad that I've separated myself from that world.

PUT DOWN THE CONTROLLER. LIVE LIFE.

I used to hide behind my artwork but now I want to live for myself and experience things in real life. That I can't experience through leveling up, going to towns IN GAME, going to dungeons IN GAME, you can't beat living real life.

How to Tell You're Young

As you can see from a great deal of my posts I BUY A LOT OF SHIT. And I like that happy feeling of opening up a package like its Christmas. But earlier this week I had one of those moments:

With as much stuff I buy, I realized how little I have.

You know someone is young mentally if all they can think of is themselves and how much shit they want to buy. You know someone is young if all they can think about is freakin' video games or buying 8 million cars and rims and shit.

You know someone is mature when they realize that materialism doesn't bring happiness or accomplishment.

Nothing can replace that feeling of making sacrifices and standing by someone that you love and watch them grow knowing that they wouldn't have become who they are today without you. Nothing can replace knowing that you've made a difference in someone's life just by being there. Yes I even started getting all sad seeing children graduate kindergarten knowing that they have mothers that love and care enough about them to help them take their first step in life as far as school goes.

And here I am in my room full of anime, BENTO BOXES, video games, clothes, COACH PURSES...

and realizing I have absolutely nothing.

I can go on and finish my two years to get my bachelors and become a commisioned officer.

But in the end I'll still have nothing.

Growing up I learned that life has no meaning if you don't have anything to come home to. If I were famous and made a lot of money and didn't know what to do with it outside of my career what point would my life have? I realize that everything ends where it begins.

Home.

And if you have no one to come home to, what the fuck is the point of everything?

Watching Berserk again its nice to see how Guts finds out his meaning in life after realizing that he had nothing to live for except fighting. In the end (far after the anime series) he dedicates his life to protecting the love of his life, Casca, hoping to return her back to normal. Of course I'll never see that in my lifetime. Better hope Miura has kids to finish off the goddamn story.

As for me, I keep working trying to advance myself career wise. But in the end I realize I don't want any of that. I wish I could stand by someone's side and support them and help them achieve their goals. That's the kind of happiness that I won't get from a bento box, getting a bachelors, or becoming an officer. Rather than me going up the ladder I realized that I as a woman would be happiest supporting a man, watching and helping them grow. I know in this day and age that sounds dated especially in this feminist society. But dammit that's the true role women were born to play. Without mothers there wouldn't be lost idiots like me wandering around because I wouldn't be born. But you can't bring society back to normal. Now women are taught to compete with men as far as degrees and jobs go and men expect women to bring in the dough while they take the female role. No wonder why I wanted to stay single my whole life until I met a man who did play the traditional role in life and was man enough to support a woman and provide for a family.

So in the end, I've realized.

I AIN'T GOT SHIT.

Sugarcharms

I made an order at Sugarcharms on the 14th. I recieved everything today the 18th. So it only took four days to get my order. Shit that's some damn good service. Not to mention the box looked so pretty that I didn't open this up until I got home so I could take a picture of it. LAME I know but wow.


Oh yes and then it all gets better. Look at that nice ass packaging. Man. They really care about their customers. This by far blows out J-list and Ichibankan.


...I didn't even want to open this. Freakin' gift wrap and shit. Its been a while since I've seen packaging this good.


And here's what I ordered. Unlike the last two stores I ordered from on some of the items you can see what the original price is. They weren't too far off unlike freakin Shopkawaii that charges you up the ass on everything.

By far these two bento boxes beat every other bento box I've bought. You get what you pay for with ichibankan which isn't too bad since those are really high quality for $1 bento boxes. I spent $19 on the ones above and they're just freakin' gorgeous. Man. Think I'm going to get one more bento box then I'm done with my fling.

Because I started thinking...with all the lunch boxes I'm buying... I sure as hell don't have any silverware! Man. I need a list of stuff to buy when I live on my own.

Oh yeah I forgot to mention that both boxes came with food dividers and a mini soy sauce fishie free of charge. If anyone asks me where they should get bento boxes - I'm forwarding them to Sugar Charms.

How to be Useless

So my current obession is bento boxes.

I don't even know how to cook.

Still, I ended up wasting probably $400+ on this shit. Because ONE DAY I will learn how to cook and make use of this!


Today came the orders from J-list and Ichiban Kan.


I spent $254 on the goods from J-list. ...Oddly everything was in the smaller box out of the two. And I see some of my order is missing like a microwave hello kitty rice cooker I bought. Out of the 32 items I ordered I only received 18. Well I'll email them and hope that there's another package on the way.


There's all the random sanrio shit I ordered. Mostly random things like things that shape food into hello kitty's face. STFU I like cute shit.


Other randomness for bentos like things that shape rice into hearts. ...YES I'M GETTING INTO THE ART OF BENTO. This ain't no sandwich in a brown bag!


Then here's my order from Ichiban Kan. I'm guessing Ichiban Kan is like some 100 yen store kind of place or something since a great deal of the bento boxes were only $1 or so. I'd probably second guess ordering there but I've seen plenty of people on the Livejournal Bento Lunches community with Ichiban Kan goods with no complaints so I went ahead with my order. I got A LOT of shit for only $16.25.


All the bento boxes I bought. As said before a great deal of them were only $1 or so. Though I will say how surprised I am at how small everything was. Damn internet making everything look bigger. Everything came wrapped up yet one of my bento boxes had a dead ant on the side. I don't ever see ants in my house so WTF.


I also bought a rice bowl for only $1 or so. Good deals.

...I guess I should learn how to cook now.

I do see how bad this obsession is getting. What am I going to do with all these bento boxes? Okay, just two more orders on these boxes then I'm done for years.

I'm supposed to be prideful that I'm not retarded about money. ...Maybe I'll put the Burberry wallet on hold. I want a pink one dammit and I'm looking around at Coach and Burberry and I don't see any cute pink stuff. I think I'm good with the anime and video game department, I only want Flower, Sun, and Rain.

As far as other expenses I'm going to buy some Under Armour goods since next to food that's more needed than anything - FITNESS. I should mention that I actually ran a mile without stopping today. Now all I got to do is run a mile and a half without stopping. Then I have to make sure I do that under 14 minutes. >_>;; Three years ago I was a fat slobby nerd that did nothing but complain about my life but did nothing about it. Now I'm doing all I can to get fit so I can make something of myself. :)

Romeo x Juliet

This was the first image I saw of Romeo x Juliet when they first announced it some years ago. Of course my first reaction was:

WTF kind of adaptation is this? JULIET ISN'T EVEN HOT!

And I never paid attention to it since. I figured that anime was really running out of ideas if they were going to do an adaptation of Romeo x Juliet with a Juliet that isn't even hot. Then I saw an ad on rightstuf during their funimation sale last month and wondered why there was a blaze of fire behind Juliet and wondered why Juliet was wearing ARMOR of all things.


Then I find out she has a dual identity in the anime. She actually spent her whole life dressed as a boy named Odin.



I can't remember how the original story went but I sure as hell know she wasn't parading around as a guy in the original version nor was her character the strong kind. I think Juliet's role in this was a nice twist of the tale. They made it so she was the masculine one.



...As you can see Romeo sure isn't Brad Pitt or anything. I think the roles are more like Rose of Versailles where Oscar did the dirty work while Andre was more pampered. Sure not a good comparison since Romeo is a noble, but he doesn't have to go through anywhere near as much shit Juliet has to.

Juliet does discover her womanhood despite having to hide it for so many years when she meets Romeo. Thus the case of every seemingly manly woman out there.

Another thing that makes this series awesome is that Hitoshi Sakimoto of Final Fantasy Tactics and XII fame does the music.

Compact

There's two box sets that I'm quite sad that I have to get rid of. First one being:

Gensomaden Saiyuki
I recall coming across Saiyuki in the past because I'd always read the "Genso" part and think "Suikoden" would come right after. Once again I should mention I wasn't really into anime when I lived in Japan. Although I watched anime as a kid I had a "dry period" for a good five years I think. It wasn't till I moved out of Japan that I got into anime again. Saiyuki ended up being an impulse buy on my birthday back in 2003. I actually bought it along with Yami no Matusei and since I already watched Yami no Matsuei in the past I knew I'd like it but I blindly bought Saiyuki with it knowing absolutely nothing about it. I expected Saiyuki to be full of yaoi and shit. I don't think I watched it till a couple weeks after I bought it and I was blown away because it was everything I wasn't expecting.

No Saiyuki is no Rose of Versailles or Gungrave or anything, in fact the series actually gets shitty in the second half. But I'd say its like Ranma 1/2 because it has characters that are so likable that I could watch 400 episodes of them in it. Saiyuki is also special because its the first anime series I started buying on DVD. This was ADV at their best because the packaging was something else.



The two box sets right next to each other. I first bought the first DVD that also came with the T-shirt and I had no idea why it came with a box. It wasn't until I bought the 4th volume (and I was buying these DVDs as they came out) that I realized I PUT THE DVDS INSIDE THE BOXSET. Shut up, I know I'm slow.



The sides of the boxsets.




The DVDs all had nice illustrations drawn by Kazuya Minekura. Since I was buying these as they came out I always looked forward to see who'd be on the cover of the next volume.


Even the back of the DVDs were colorful and looked good!


The best part was definetely the posters that came with each DVD, another thing I looked forward to. I can't find where I put all the other ones but this poster in particular came with a picture of Cho Hakkai on the front with another side full of info on the series on the back. And not only did it come with posters of characters some of them even came with character relationship charts and info about the characters. ADV truly gave a damn when they localized this series. Like if I compare this to Petite Princess Yucie the singles just came with a reversible DVD cover and THAT'S IT.

Not only that I also loved the extras the DVDs had. Like there were cultural notes that'd further explain more background about the series that the average American (like me) wouldn't know.


BUT THEN I have to take into account... I'm moving. And this shit takes up a lot of space. SPACE I DON'T HAVE. So I bought the thinpak for $29.99... Really cheap considering I bought the first DVDs WAY BEFORE I knew of rightstuf.com so I bought the majority of these for "kinda sorta" retail price. I probably spent well over $250 on the whole series. I was so anxious to get volume 7 that I actually bought it twice. Once as a single DVD and another with the boxset. Yes, at a time Saiyuki was so my shit.


With the thinpak you don't get all the pretty pictures and not to mention the DVDs themselves LACK the extras like the cultural notes that just makes the series even more fun. Damn. Wonder if I'll get in trouble if I just take out the discs of the thinpak and put them in the single DVDs I bought. Haha, that's mean so I won't do that. I'll just say bye... It's not like I've actually watched Saiyuki recently at all anyway.


Yes my shelves will be so much happier with the thinpak. :(


Then there's Peach Girl


The Peach Girl boxset is also special to me because I bought this series as they were coming out and as small as Peach Girl may have been as a series, it opened the door to fansubs because that was the only way I could watch the series since there were no raws. At this time I was fluent in Japanese and refused to watch subs because it'd take away from me understanding anything I watched because I'd be reading the subtitles instead. Which was true because it totally fucked me over and can't watch anything without subtitles now. On the other hand being introduced to fansubs introduced me to a shitload of other series that don't come stateside...the biggest one being Rose of Versailles. I first came across RoV because I wanted to leave my computer on overnight and noticed that my Peach Girl episode was almost done downloading. So I decided to randomly download RoV just to hear the song that an old V-kei band named Lareine covered. Next thing I knew I was watching all of RoV (everything I could download at the time) in a week.


The Peach Girl DVDs had like the best packaging ever with all the bright colors used. I liked how girly it looked. The singles used the manga artwork while the thinpak uses art from the anime.



I just love how girly everything looks... Too bad I have to let it go... The single DVDs however didn't come with anything except the DVD. And the extras weren't that special. I think the only extra Peach Girl came with that was awesome was the commentary from the dub cast on the last DVD. They even shared my same thoughts about how Momo (hardcore spoilers if you haven't watched Peach Girl but are planning to) ends up with the douchebag Kairi who does nothing but make retard excuses. Sure Toji was a tard too but nowhere near as painful as Kairi.



I'm not as sad about getting rid of this boxset as I am about getting rid of Saiyuki. The thinpak still comes with all the same feautures the singles came with. Just the difference is as far as the box goes is that the thinpak uses the anime art instead of the manga art. But that box that this series comes with is freaking beautiful and looks even more pretty when putting the DVDs in there. I'm getting rid of the box...but I'm not getting rid of the purse the boxset came with. When I first got the purse I actually got a lot of compliments about it as if it were some Coach purse or something. o_O Yes, there'd be snobs in freakin' Nordstrom complimenting my purse not knowing that it came with an anime DVD. I haven't used it in about two years but suddenly a lightbulb turned on in my head and I realized that it'd make a great bento lunch bag. :)

Berserk Remastered


I wasn't sad about getting rid of Berserk at all. Probably because the thinpak actually came with more since it was remastered. I just watched a couple episodes the other day and the quality is freakin' beautiful. Originally the Berserk series looks as bad and washed out as Utena (oh if only the remastered Utena DVDs would come stateside) but remastered it actually looks new. Not only that even the DVDs come with pretty artwork on them. Not to mention unlike Peach Girl I kept the box. Mainly because it folds out into an illustration so I could keep it for display purposes.

And its all Because of...
I know, just to think I'm getting rid of everything to make sure I don't have much when I start my new life in the military. Trying not to be a fat nerd sucks. My legs hurt from running but I keep pushing myself because I know I have to do a lot to get through BMT.

A week ago I was talking to this lady who thought I had it all when she looked at me. She asked if I was married. I said no. Asked if I had a fiancee. I said no. Asked if I had a boyfriend. I said no. She just looked at me absolutely dumbfounded and couldn't believe why a woman like me and of my age is single. She looked at the ring on my finger and couldn't believe that wasn't a wedding ring. Its like she thought I was lying but I truly wasn't. And men in the military are a bit more mature than the average men out there. Yes, some men out there aren't afraid of commitment. So its usually safe to assume every civilian woman you see on a base is a spouse. In the end she got the impression I was one of those feminist independent women. Of course it doesn't help that I just graduated college and am heading into a military career shortly after.

She then asked if I'd like to have children. I said I would...but then again in her mind if I wanted children then why am I single? Oh god, don't ask me. Fuck the last guy I was with gave me a fucking iMac in place of commitment. You don't always get what you want in life. And what I want... is to become a bride and a wife and settle down and have children. But thanks to my plentiful romantic mishaps of the past two years I have to do something for myself. I'm fucking tired of this shit. Its a crossroads because after I officially become part of the military my life will change and I'll never know what its like to be a civilian again even after my service in the military is over. When I think of that, the life that I truly do want - it sucks forcing myself to run faster and farther. But I know I'm already at the point of no return. I have to join the military. Meaning I need to get rid of all my shit like all those DVDs up there. ...If not for that...say if I were able to become a wife I'd be able to keep my shit.

But oh well.

Life sucks. :(

Designing Woman

Grades come out tomorrow so I can find out if I really graduated. Hopefully I did, I don't want to be like Homer Simpson who just walked but never graduated!

Graduation Gifts


When I graduated highschool I was given $500 and I went crazy spending it on video games, anime, and other bullshit. I think I sold most of what I spent that money with. I used to pride myself for not being the kind of girl that wastes her money on expensive purses and wallets and was fine walking around with my hello kitty purses (not the designer ones mind yout - YES THEY EXIST - but the 10 dollar ones.) Because at the time I was one of those GRRRRLLLLL GAMERS. Well okay, maybe not that extreme. Just a female that played video games. I won't lie though, at that time I did think I deserved a medal. But I wasn't anywhere near as bad as some other girls out there.

Then of course five years later I get my associates and spend $476 on two Coach purses.

I was actually at a gamestop today and well - not interested in anything. I didn't even feel like I needed to buy Cross Edge. No instead I felt that I needed to own two coach purses instead. One thing I will say about wearing designer goods is that it sure keeps the broke douchebags away. And by that I mean lazy guys that come to me because they think I'm insecure and will spend my money on them. Which well - actually happened at one point and time due to being too innocent but HEY I experienced the real world in the last two years. I KNOWZ BETTERZ NOW.

I don't think me buying designer goods will get the best of me. Those purses are a season old and the current season of Coach purses look like shit. I think I just want one more, a brown purse. I was going to get the brown version of the 2nd one too but nope - I'm good. That's the most common color and they'll probably release a better one in the future. LOLOL I also want a pink Burberry wallet and a Burberry muffler in the future. But that depends on whether I get stationed to a cold place. (Well for the muffler.) Damn I can't find a pink burberry wallet anywhere there.

Its not bad to splurge once in a while. And after spending so much money on my tuition and computer programs, my next step buying a Burberry wallet won't be so bad. Time to be a snob and go to nordstrom in the future, AND THIS TIME ACTUALLY BUY SOMETHING.